We Never Were Apart

“He sent His word and healed them, and delivered them from their destructions” (Psalm 107:20 NKJV)

So many magical and revealing things have been going on in recent days. My mind is starting to clear and although I see that the road ahead has many hurdles, for the first time in my life I feel that I am ready to face them. Faith has deepened my understanding of not just who I am, but is also altering my perspective of the world around me. My past and future seem to have collided and created a golden opportunity to renew myself as I was always intended to be in the eyes of God. I will go into more detail in my next entry, but just for now, I want to share a poem I wrote the other day about my current situation. Hope you enjoy:

I thought you'd deserted me, left me out here alone
I thought you couldn’t hear me, I was a child that you'd disowned
I believed that you existed but you couldn't set me free
I believed you could be visible, but not to a girl like me

For many years I talked to you, for many years I cried
For many years I couldn't fit in, no matter how hard I tried
I talked you every once in a while, sometimes every day
But talking never seemed to help me hear what you would say

I put you on a pedestal, somewhere way up high
I thought I would only meet you, on that day that I would die
I wondered then if I would see the heart I longed to feel
I wondered if the God I thought about, was the real deal

I never thought you talked to me, as much as I did you
I sometimes thought you laughed at, the girl without a clue
It's only now I realise as you open up my heart
That you and I weren’t skies away, we'd never been apart

The storms that raged inside of me, the battle with my soul
You trickled drops of your sweet love, to renew me to my whole
The anger and the fear that cloaked me every day
You parted with a sea of love, to brush the tears away

When I thought the world had turned its back on me for good
You soothed me with a lullaby, of words that understood
When self loathing and harm would rip me up in shreds
Your kisses filled my room with hope as they landed gently on my head

You never left me even though I couldn't always see you there
You never left me, even when I thought you didn't care
You gently and so kindly put your hand upon my heart
You whispered, "sweet child don't you fear,we'll never be apart."

Love Always.x