Saved By His Army

" He sent out his word and healed them,and delivered them from their destruction." (Psalm 107:20)

What a difference a day makes!! God has not forgotten about me, no no no, He loves me. He really honestly loves me and He knows I will get through this painful part of my existence. Good things are in my destiny, I just have to be strong.

I rang my sister earlier for a quick chat and she invited me to a barbecue at Anya and Vins (earthly angels), to celebrate his birthday. Usually I am no good with last minute invites, I need time to assess what will happen and let my mind poison my thoughts with fear over the upcoming event, but today I just agreed to come. If anyone could bring me out of this pool of darkness, this amazing couple were the right way to go. So, I went and was immediately welcomed by another miracle couple, Justin and Rachel and many other new faces I hadn’t seen before.

Amongst these people was Ian Clayton, the inspirational speaker and messenger of God, from the training school I attended on Friday. Anya took me to sit with him to ask his advice on the affliction of severe depression on my mind. He was so gracious and started explaining that a bad spirit had attached itself to me and it was essentially keeping me trapped in the past, in my pain, in my fear of rejection and all the other battles I face within. He spoke from God through to me, that God has a destiny for me and it was to help other people who had also been broken and suffering. He advised me that these challenges I was going through were there to help me to get closer to God and to free myself from that negative spirit. The enemy would only defeat me if I let it. I could choose to go whichever way I wanted to, but I know which choice I want and already have made.

I was so touched that Ian spent this time with me, his words boosted my spirit and knowing that my pain could help other people, resonated with the spirit within. God has spoke these words to me many times, I now know it really was Him saying them. Ian told me I could remove the record of my DNA that was harbouring the bad thoughts, and return to the original record where only the spirit of God moves through me and this filled me with hope. There is another way. Its not the way out necessarily, I think for me it has shown me there is a way through. But the baggage stays behind, tossed like an old record, never to be heard again.

Justin, who is also a close companion of Gods, also opened his home and said I could come and see him and his wife whenever I wanted. The people that I have met since being on this path have humbled me. They open their hearts and their homes to all people because they don't see the evil we believe we possess, they see the spirit of God in us and want to help us see it too. We are so used to being in a society where we are permanently judged, where kindness is seen as a weakness and where we consider our time too precious to share with others. These traits do not exist with children of God, who recognise their place in the world. In fact. they are not really of this world, so they are not bounded by its constraints and demons. They soar above the realm of the physical and today I felt awake to their unbelievable power and grace. You have to see it to believe it, it will take you to your knees.

I have left the barbecue today, plated with a new suit of armour. Anya and Vin not only imparted advice and love, they also gave me some audio to listen to so I can soak in the word of God. But beside that, I have met more of the powerful army that is invading our earth all around us. The spirit that follows me, that gets in my head day after day telling me I am nothing and I am worthless is but a small speck compared to the spirit of the Lord that is already within me and within us all. I can be the destiny that I am called to be or I can let the darkness descend. Then I would destroy not only my life, but potentially many more that I could have saved by using my experiences to heal the wounds of those who've been where I've been. There are so many people who can't stand to be who they are and too many of them give up the fight. My destiny in God is the one I've always known about, but been too scared to go for. Failure and doubt are just a learning curve, it does not have to be a destination. I hope that I don't meet you there, instead lets meet in the true light of heavenly glory, right here on earth.

Love Always.x